Singing Otter

Tomorrow it will be five years since you left us. It's weird because even though it doesn't seem that long ago... at the same time it seems a lifetime ago. I miss you so much. Every year around this time, it's hard. Even when I push away the memory of your passing away... it comes back to haunt me. Only.... it doesn't hurt as bad. I remember talking to Aunt Mazie and listening to her story about great grandma's passing. I knew then that one day I'd be telling my experiences to the younger ones and passing on remembrances of you. You were right about so many things. I am shining now. Sometimes it's hard but I keep on keeping on.... just like you and mom taught me. She's doing well! I'm taking care of her like I promised. Her diabetes has me worried... she speaks of death from time to time and I wonder if she's trying to prepare me. I try not to worry about it and look forward to spending as much time with her as possible. lol We were sewing today and she oohed and aahed over my beadwork. Kinda like I do over her sewing. It's gotten hard at times but we're doing ok. So many things have changed.... some for the better and others for the worst. I don't write as much as I use to. The poems and stories seemed to have dried up until yesterday. I picked up my pen and began to write more. Maybe my words will make a difference to someone. You were right though, no one can tell my story better than me. I remember.

When all is said and done, I am so happy to have known you. Blessed to have you as my father. I love you Daddy. I miss you.

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