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It's really getting to become difficult, when life continues to become one unecessary death after another. Young warrior's barely start to see what life has to offer, and before we know it their gone. I don't know how long or how many more funerals I can take. These aren't the kind of life experiences one should ever get used to. It's one thing to go to a grandparent's funeral, their passing is very difficult also, but one can expect a granparent to pass in a lifetime. When it's the friend's and the children that steadily fill the obituaries, most times I look around and wonder what kind of life am I setting my own children up for. When you see no out in a community other than prison or the grave and you stay anyway, I mean you try and make a difference you don't just accept it because you want the next generation to have it easier.......well I don't know if I'm saying it right or if Im starting to ramble.....but if I love my kid's how can I stay where everything seem's to have become so unbelievably sad, do I knowingly keep raising them in a community where they will be handed a life of laying their friends to rest and it being so common that it become's the norm? Is that abuse if I can almost forsee the grief I seem to be heading to hand to them? This isn't a woe me post this is maybe just a way to ask for some support or prayer's. I'm not good at asking for something for myself but I haven't slept all night, last night I got word that a good friend of mine began his journey to the spirit world, he was killed at the ripe old age of 23. He was more than a friend though, he was one of our warriors. I told him one of the last time's that I spoke with him that I thought their was a word in Dakota that meant, closer than blood, and that he was that to me, I wish I could have remembered the word so that I could have said it to him, but he know's. Your prayer's would really help now, I need to feel something so that I can help the family in their time of need, something so I won't lose it.....................

Blackbear

My prayers go out to you and the family. Sometimes numbness happens, I've experienced that before... it will leave the moment you go to help that family out. We never become totally unfeeling or the numbness would'nt concern you. But it might be what you need so you don't lose it in helping the family, and then you can have your own good cry afterwards.

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Don't worry that it's not good enough for anyone else to hear... just sing, sing a song.

Imasurvivor2

sorry for your loss

browneyedgirl0628

you are in my prayers.

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Christine

beadtasia

Sound's like you have a lot on your plate right now. Just remember, when you think that you have hit rock bottom, the only way to go is UP!
Keep hangin' in there!
You and yours and in my prayers